Something Wrong Somewhere

Okay today I'm going to be emotional..maybe..a bit..slightly..okay fine. I admit it. All out. Satisfied.?
Yeah..Truth be told I MISS you..Truth be told I'm LYING....When you see my face hope it gives you hell..hope it gives you hell..sorry2..I got carried away..Pardon the insanity.

It just came to my conscious that I do need someone to talk too..I'm fairly a secretive kind of person. Because I don't want to nag about my life and problems that I face to others. Don't get me wrong, I'm a good listener indeed. I was the one who's holding back when it comes to my story. I guess it's because I trust no one. I've learn enough about sincerity and trustworthy. And I ended up getting lied to. Damn it. People may think that I'm just some babe in the woods. But I'm NOT.

So that is exactly why I keep pushing people away from my side. I don't want to be deceive. No. Not anymore. You should understand why I did what I did to you. I'm sorry to say. You can call me a meanie, or whatever terms you like. But THIS IS ME. The way I am. I'm not gonna change just to please people. NEVER. You hear me. N.E.V.E.R..ever..ever..

Errgh..I'm so tired of being treated this way. So, the best thing is just get the hell out of my life. I don't need you sticking around like a shadow of disguise. Maybe you'll say I'm a loner. But I'm content with my life like the way it is. So, back off.!!

p/s: pheww..I felt much at ease after posting this :)